Thursday, November 13, 2014

Finding Solitude

 photo DS9C7197 copy_zpsv0oscwpx.jpg A little over two years ago I made a personal and spiritual decision to dedicate myself to becoming my greatest version. As someone who has struggled with depression for the majority of their life, I remember finally asking myself one morning what I needed in order to have a happy and fulfilling life. Almost immediately I answered myself; I need to aspire to discover and achieve my full potential. My happiness would be dependent upon nothing else other than me and my thoughts and my actions.  From the moment I made this decision it seemed as though my life turned in an entirely new direction. My entire perspective of the world had been flipped. Everything began quickly changing, including myself.

More recently, I have found myself seeking and enjoying time spent alone. More than ever, I want as much time as possible to dedicate to my thoughts and being in sync with myself. I still reach out to my friends and family and enjoy spending time with them, however I don't want anything to distract me from my main focus of achieving independence and being free. This is so important and crucial to creating the happiest life for myself and being able to continue to grow and evolve into my greatest version. I want the freedom to dedicate my time to do what I want, when I want it. I want the empowerment of being in control of almost every aspect of my life and and  making a living off of that which I enjoy and am passionate about.

My vision for myself is essentially a life with out limits and worries. I want to travel the world, meet people who inspire me and continually expand my understanding of the world. I want to be financially secure and  able to afford the fine luxuries of life. I want to be able to be there for my friends and family emotionally, spiritually and financially. I want to enjoy the present moment as much as possible. To me this is the definition of happiness.

photos- taken by Linda Ning Jia, @nn_linda,

Shirt - thrifted
Shorts - from Misc. Trading Co in Downtown Fresno. Follow @misctradingco

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  1. Cute look -- love the flower ring! And these photos are lovely! xo - Katie -

  2. Great post! Love the photos you look great and congrats to you for figuring out what you want and taking the initiative to go after it, thats wonderful.

  3. I love this outfit! That shirt makes me happy. :)

    1. Thanks! Can you believe it's a thrift store find? Such a treasure.

  4. The embroidery on your top is so fun to look at! And that lipstick! The whole thing makes me happy <3

  5. These are stunning pictures and finding solitude is very important in life xx

  6. I can't get over how utterly gorgeous these photos are, and so loved reading your story. I feel like I'm definitely grappling with some of those concepts right now but attempting to find happiness in random small actions in you know, the whole greater meaning for my life thing lol

    xx Sarah | Loser Girl Wins

  7. wish I could pull off this lipstick!!