Friday, November 21, 2014

Static Characters

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I have always had this strange desire to understand and connect to everyone, but as I have become older I have realized this is incredibly unrealistic. The fact is, most people do not have this same desire. To my surprise, many people have no interest in genuinely connecting with many people at all, especially people whom are different from themselves. This is incredibly baffling to me, yet evidently true. How can you grow as a person if you do not expose yourself to and connect with others whom are different from you? You are not expanding your view of reality beyond what your own eyes can see. Your perspective and truth of this world remains shallow and limited. You can't grow. Thus, you remain a static character in a novel written about your own life. How disappointing.

I have always loved meeting new people and learning about how they think and feel, and what their life is like. Every person has a unique perspective and life experience to share. Every person has some wisdom which you, yourself do not yet possess but can learn from. No matter how stupid, incompetent, or shallow you may perceive someone to be, they will know something you don't. Always remember that.

Stay true. Stay strong. Stay brave. Stay forever growing.

Sweater - thrifted
Animal print button down - Michael by Michael Kors
Red corduroy skinny pants - American Rag
Animal print combat boots- Forever21

photography by Bryan Ocegueda
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Thursday, November 13, 2014

Finding Solitude

 photo DS9C7197 copy_zpsv0oscwpx.jpg A little over two years ago I made a personal and spiritual decision to dedicate myself to becoming my greatest version. As someone who has struggled with depression for the majority of their life, I remember finally asking myself one morning what I needed in order to have a happy and fulfilling life. Almost immediately I answered myself; I need to aspire to discover and achieve my full potential. My happiness would be dependent upon nothing else other than me and my thoughts and my actions.  From the moment I made this decision it seemed as though my life turned in an entirely new direction. My entire perspective of the world had been flipped. Everything began quickly changing, including myself.

More recently, I have found myself seeking and enjoying time spent alone. More than ever, I want as much time as possible to dedicate to my thoughts and being in sync with myself. I still reach out to my friends and family and enjoy spending time with them, however I don't want anything to distract me from my main focus of achieving independence and being free. This is so important and crucial to creating the happiest life for myself and being able to continue to grow and evolve into my greatest version. I want the freedom to dedicate my time to do what I want, when I want it. I want the empowerment of being in control of almost every aspect of my life and and  making a living off of that which I enjoy and am passionate about.

My vision for myself is essentially a life with out limits and worries. I want to travel the world, meet people who inspire me and continually expand my understanding of the world. I want to be financially secure and  able to afford the fine luxuries of life. I want to be able to be there for my friends and family emotionally, spiritually and financially. I want to enjoy the present moment as much as possible. To me this is the definition of happiness.

photos- taken by Linda Ning Jia, @nn_linda,

Shirt - thrifted
Shorts - from Misc. Trading Co in Downtown Fresno. Follow @misctradingco

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Saturday, November 8, 2014

Sutro Baths

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Life has been quite chaotic these past two months. My vision for my future has slowly been becoming more and more of a reality for me, and this has brought about intense feelings of anxiety. I can't explain what it is like to be so excited and nervous at the same time. It's like that feeling you get moments before the roller coaster you are on is about to drop off and all you can feel is your cart slowly inching towards the edge. My hopes are so high and I see them becoming real, while at the same time I remain nervous of them not being actualized. It's like this continual seesaw of emotions.  I think this is the way one should feel when their dreams have the potential of becoming real very soon.

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Me and my friend Wendie from Cusator Photography had such a great morning hanging out and taking pictures at the Sutro Baths in San Francisco. The Sutro Baths was originally a huge glamorous private bathhouse that had 7 different swimming pools of varying tempertures, slides, springboards, trapezes and a high dive. The facilities were known for being luxurious, exotic and large enough to fit over 10,000 people. All that remains of it today are ruins since it burned down in the 1960's.

It's crazy to think about what it once was. The decaying concrete slabs and caves leave me imagining of what the baths once looked like in real life. The way nature has continued to grow and embrace these ruins is a unique sight in itself. It reminds me of how life continues to go on even when something significant and great has been destroyed.

Photos by Wendie Cusator; Cusator Photography 

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Monday, November 3, 2014

City Girl at Golden Gate Park

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Thought I would share some images from a shoot I helped style a few weeks ago at Golden Gate Park. We wanted a mix between modern and sophisticated with vintage and retro inspired style, and that would also compliment the yellow hay in the picture below. I had so much fun helping out and I think the pictures turned out great.

Let me know what you think.

photos- taken by Linda Ning Jia, @nn_linda,
makeup- Tiffany Chou @tiffchou
model - Shantal Rooke @themodelshantalrooke

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