Friday, January 23, 2015

Playing Games

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 Life is a game; a non-competitive game of Sorry! to be exact. It's really colorful and fun, it's not meant to be taken too seriously, but every now and then you have to make some sporadic moves and laugh like a super villain as you knock some pegs off the board. My end goal is always in sight, but maneuvering my way to get there takes countless readjustments to the game plan. It's literally all a game.

It's all just this crazy juggling act and one small slip up can make it feel like everything is crashing down. My focus is constantly changing each and every day. The game plan is constantly changing and readjusting to whatever the current situation brings. Flexibility is a virtue many forget to mention or even consider, yet without it you won't find yourself going very far. Like I have said before, things almost never go to plan but that doesn't mean they don't have a way of working out. You have to continuously scan and analyze your surroundings. What can you make from this? What do I do now? How do I take the next step forward? If you keep searching you will eventually find exactly what you need.

Vintage Halston Sweater and Lee jeans - thrifted from Black and Brown San Jose, CA
Steve Madden Sunglasses - Marshall's
Flats - Luxury Rebel
Rose Gold Bradshaw Watch - Michael Kors

Photos by my lovely and talented friend Linda :)
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Friday, January 16, 2015


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I have such a love for places like Chinatown in San Francisco. The energy and life is abundant and inescapable. There are a million different stories waiting to be told at any given moment. I remember walking by this park and there were dozens of different groups of people gambling and playing card games. I had never seen anything like that before. It was so strange to have that realization, that something as insignificant as a lot of different people doing nothing other than just hanging out at a park and interacting with each other was unusual. Why is that such a unique sight to see? Why did this image stand out more than anything else that day? People don't hang out anymore. Everyone is so isolated from one another to the point where something like a community of people who hang out together is something almost unheard of.

Bangle set from Original Cowgirl Clothing. Follow on Instagram @originalcowgirlclothing
Booties - Michael by Michael Kors
Waxed Jeans - H&M
Cardigan and Turtleneck sweater - thrifted

Photos by Phillip Santos
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See more of his work at

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Friday, January 9, 2015

Beautiful Disasters

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I am a firm believer in the idea of life is what you make it. Sometimes life will throw a really shitty hand of cards your way but what many fail to understand is that the shittiest hand can quickly become the best. Transform and transcend everything to make it what you want. Life rarely works out the way you want it to, but if you can move forward and take all that you can from every negative and positive experience you never lose. Let every perceived misfortune propel you that much further into the direction you want to go.

"Energy cannot be created or destroyed; it can only be changed from one form to another. "
- Albert Einstein

 It's all about perception. Life is whatever you perceive it to be. I don't lose and I can't lose because I don't see it as an option. No matter what happens I am able to make the best of it.

photos by Matt Martin
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Friday, January 2, 2015

Bring in the New Year

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It's a new year! How exciting! I have been looking forward to 2015 so much and it is finally here.  This will be my first year on my own and in a new city. It's crazy to think about how much life has changed from just one year ago. I try to remember that each day. My resolutions for 2015 are incredibly different from any other year. I have never really made new year resolutions before to be honest, however I feel that because each year has its own special reoccurring theme and lessons, I want to be certain I direct this year in the right way.

My main resolution is to make better and stronger connections with others. I want to be less self-centered and self-involved and have more concern for the general well-being of others. Self obsession with in our society today is the norm due to social media and pop culture. Not only is this a very unhealthy mindset, it creates a disconnect and isolation from others. I love hearing people tell me how their day was or how they are feeling. I love hugging people. I love talking to complete strangers and telling them things you wouldn't normally tell others. In general, I love the human connection; it is one of the great blessings of living.

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The bags I am showcasing are from a very lovely fashion line called Landfill Dzine. You would never guess it, but this company prevents the material used for irrigation hoses from being thrown into landfills by incorporating it into their product. These bags are made from a combination of the strong and durable irrigation hosing material with a fine leather.  If you are someone like me, someone who is passionate about the preservation of our planet and its resources but also have a love for fashion go check out the rest of their products at

Photography by lovely friend Wendie Cusator. Follow her @cusatorphotography

Saturday, December 20, 2014

The American Dream

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While I am in the process of chasing my own dreams, there is one thing I refuse to chase, and that is the American dream. What is the American dream? To some it is a beautiful house, a beautiful family and a new car. To other people it is wealth beyond their wildest dreams. We work so hard for all of these things that are supposed to make us happy. We sacrifice so much of our energy, spirit, and time doing things we don't enjoy in order to one day acquire the image of a happy life. Why can't you live a happy life today? What is stopping you?

One idea that has come to bother me a lot this past year is the idea of having to work yourself miserable in order to be worthy of the things that you want. What kind of nonsense is this? What is this idea of having to work harder than everyone else in order to be deserving of happiness? Yes, sometimes in order to get what you want, you have to work hard, sacrifice and even suffer, but to live a life of continuous stress in order to buy the latest phone and make your new car payments is beyond ridiculous. How are these things making you happy? How are they contributing to your overall well-being? Why are you trading your time, your spirit, and your peace of mind for these objects?

What is so terrible about sleeping in late when you feel tired, or moving slowly when you aren't in a rush to go anywhere? Why am I constantly being given the impression that I have to compete with everyone around me in order to be worthy of a happy life? I am living a happy life as we speak. I spend my time in a way that makes me happy and I refuse to feel guilty for doing this. This does not make me lazy or unambitious. I have my personal goals and priorities and I do what is necessary for them, yet I still find time to take care of my own emotional and spiritual needs. I live a balanced life and this is far more rewarding than anything an extra few dollars from working over-time will ever be able to buy me.

“But to believe that getting stuff is the purpose and aim of life is madness. ”
Hubert Selby Jr., Requiem for a Dream

Jacket - thrifted
Sleeveless Turtleneck - thrifted
Plaid Pants - Michael by Michael Kors
Combat Boots - Guess

Photos by Chris Wolfe
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Friday, December 5, 2014

Being Lost

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Many of us will reach points in our lives where we feel uncertain of just about everything. It's a strange time in one's life to reach this point. Sometimes you won't be sure of who you are, what you want, or where you are going. Sometimes you come to this awkward stand still and feel indifferent to almost everything. You feel almost numb. Things that were once exciting aren't anymore. Certain people aren't funny anymore. You don't even feel the same way when you listen to your favorite song.

Imagine hearing silence even though you are in a room full of bustling people. Everything is in fast forward and on mute. You are standing there without a clue as to what is exactly happening and all you can think to do is just observe and try to take it all in. You don't feel sad or in pain; just confused and frustrated by so many little things. It's like silent chaos. I think that is what it means to be lost.

 Everyone should go through a period like this at least once in their lives. It isn't a bad thing to be lost. It is a sign of you challenging your belief and value system and changing your general view of the world.  You are reassessing what is really important to you and what you want your life to be about. Something about the old way wasn't working anymore and instead of holding onto a failed system and philosophy to remain comfortable, you have decided to move forward in order to see truth.

 Life is about finding truth, but truth is always changing as life continues to evolve. You shouldn't always be certain of everything all time. Something that was once true yesterday, may not be so today. The most important thing about change is to surrender to it. Accept it. No matter how scary it may appear to be, you can't fight it. Fighting will make the process difficult and painful and no one wants that. Just trust and know somehow, some way, that this confusing period of transition is the best thing that could happen right now. You are evolving and growing into a better version of yourself. You are blessed.

Photos by Bryan Ocegueda
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Friday, November 21, 2014

Static Characters

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I have always had this strange desire to understand and connect to everyone, but as I have become older I have realized this is incredibly unrealistic. The fact is, most people do not have this same desire. To my surprise, many people have no interest in genuinely connecting with many people at all, especially people whom are different from themselves. This is incredibly baffling to me, yet evidently true. How can you grow as a person if you do not expose yourself to and connect with others whom are different from you? You are not expanding your view of reality beyond what your own eyes can see. Your perspective and truth of this world remains shallow and limited. You can't grow. Thus, you remain a static character in a novel written about your own life. How disappointing.

I have always loved meeting new people and learning about how they think and feel, and what their life is like. Every person has a unique perspective and life experience to share. Every person has some wisdom which you, yourself do not yet possess but can learn from. No matter how stupid, incompetent, or shallow you may perceive someone to be, they will know something you don't. Always remember that.

Stay true. Stay strong. Stay brave. Stay forever growing.

Sweater - thrifted
Animal print button down - Michael by Michael Kors
Red corduroy skinny pants - American Rag
Animal print combat boots- Forever21

photography by Bryan Ocegueda
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